So hurt after hearing what happened, today during lessons my heart was barely there, I kept drifting off thinking about it. About how disgusting, incorrigible a person can be. I feel so so hurt.

Sometimes when I blink, I feel the tears there, but no one sees it at all (which is good). I just smile it off. When I’m with friends, I pretend that everything’s okay when things aren’t. But I don’t want to make them sad too. This is my problem and I’ll try my best to suck it up and move on. Disgusting people aren’t worth the time at all, really. Feel so numbed by everything, it makes me lose faith in people.